This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! 2 Corinthians 5:17 (NLT)
What have I gotten myself into????
I believe that I have read Day 1 in this book five times! It is called avoidance. What am I avoiding…this blog and the truths that smacked me in the face today. I think there should be music playing in the background of my life right now. What music??? How about the theme song from the cartoon…”George of the Jungle”!!! Really, I only need the announcer to let me know to “watch out for that…truth you don’t want to see”.
Yes, I am being bombarded with some truths here lately. This. Is. Not. Going. To. Be. Easy! Transformation rarely is easy or comfortable. I can actually feel the blisters forming as I try walking in these new shoes.
“Patti, your still avoiding the truth. Get. To. The. Point.”
1. I have no idea what God’s purpose was or is for my marriage. Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! Don’t know why that confession hurts as much as it does? I mean, I know that one of His purposes for us was to bring Sara and Keith into this world, but beyond the children we were given to care for…I really have never considered the impact that Peter and I, together, are to have in God’s plan on this earth. Is there something more God has planned for us to complete as a couple??? This thought is taking me in a different direction than I have ever considered before. I have spent lots of time speculating on God’s plan for me…I need to change that perspective and concentrate more on we.
2. This is much more difficult to share. I do not thank God for Peter as much as I should. I actually got out my handwritten journal of prayers to make sure that I did, indeed, on occasion thank God for my husband. I am saddened that I actually had to look in my journal for that answer instead of knowing positively that I have thanked God for Peter. I have, but not on a daily basis. I want my marriage to better reflect God’s love and in order for that to happen I need to remember to thank God for Peter and to thank Peter for who he is and all he does for our family.
Thank You for this life You have gifted to me. Thank You for Peter and for the good man he is and that he is continuing to grow more comfortable in his role as spiritual head of our home. Thank You for keeping us together and for seeing us through our difficult times. Help me Lord, to express my gratitude and love to Peter every day. Help us walk hand in hand with You and each other…help us to keep You in the center of our marriage and our home. Make our marriage into a new creation that glorifies You. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.