Our word this week in our 52 week word study on the Many Strands page is “transform”. This also happens to be Helena’s 2012 word from God. I remember the first time she shared her story with our group…I was moved to tears and was so blessed by what she had written AND I know that you will be moved and blessed by her story too. Thank you Helena for sharing your heart with us…
My word is TRANSFORM. One evening as I was watching TV the word “renewal” kept repeating in my head over & over. It wouldn’t stop! I looked for scripture with this or “renew” and when I changed from NIV to the Amplified version, several verses used TRANSFORM instead. It jumped out at me. I researched it. I prayed about it. I kept hearing the word on my local Christian radio station. And I thought about the transformation starting with “Made T0 Crave” by Lysa TerKeurst. It was all coming together.
Here’s a little background—
For several years now I have been praying for guidance in my walk with the Lord – asking God to help me be a stronger Christian, to show me my purpose, to show me His will for my life. I wanted to be closer to Him and I got frustrated because I felt He wasn’t hearing me. Or at least not answering me. I also had been praying for patience because I have always had a problem in that area of my life. Then I started to realize I needed to read His Word more faithfully and that might help. Perhaps God would speak to me through the scriptures. I decided to do the “read the bible in a year” plan and started January 1st 2011.
On February 15, 2011 around noontime a tractor trailed heading west and fully loaded down veered off of the Highway near our home, came through my neighbor’s yard and into the side of the house. The driver – in his 40’s – had a massive heart attack behind the wheel and was dead before he hit. Coming down the highway he swerved from side to side hitting telephone poles and walls before crossing the eastbound lane. Fortunately no one else was injured. My husband was home at the time and called me once he was able to get out of the house. The truck had damaged the stone foundation and the house moved about 5”. By dark they felt it was structurally sound enough for us to go in and get whatever we could quickly pull together but they weren’t sure if it would have to be condemned. As it turned out, when they built house in the early 1900’s they built them to last! Although we would need a new foundation, the place that we had called home for 17 years could be saved. What we were told would take 3-4 months took longer than 6 but we moved back in on the last day of August. (Feel free to check out the pictures I have on FB)
After spending 2 weeks in a local motel, we heard about a vacant home in the “50 & over” park my parents live in. The park owners had not been able to sell it yet and were willing to let us rent and we could have our dog with us. The insurance company set everything up and we were a block from my parents.
Why do I tell you all this? Because of what happened over those 6 months…..things I believe were used by God to answer my prayers.
Within the first 90 days after the accident, my mother made 8 trips to the ER with congestive heart failure, A-Fib and bleeding issues from the Coumadin. They kept her 3 of those times for a week each. At one point I truly believed she wouldn’t live to see us move back to our home. But being only a block away I was there to take care of both parents, make sure my mom was eating the right things and taking her meds properly. Also during this time I got word that my daughter Amber (who is bi-polar) had a seizure from one of her meds and almost died. She spent the weekend in the ICU at a hospital near her home in Virginia and begged her boyfriend not to tell me. (I believe the seizure was caused by her drinking with the meds.) I finally cried out to God and told Him….here….I can’t do it anymore…..I’m giving it all to You. I trust You and have faith that Your Will will be done in these things. From that point on I remained calm and went through my days running over to see what was being done at the house, dealing with the insurance company and contractor and taking care of my parents. During one of the wettest springs & summers in Lancaster County, my house was put up on “stilts”, had the stone foundation removed and a new block foundation built.
Why do I tell you all this? Because now it gets good…..
The oil tank in the basement was almost rusted through on the back side and could have caused extensive damage had it started to leak. Our electrical panel was one that had been recalled in the 80’s as a fire hazard and the electrician was amazed we had not had a fire. Numerous code issues were found and corrected. Had the accident not happened we would have never known about these and other problems. In addition to a new basement, they replaced the destroyed front porch and rear deck. Our first floor is basically all new. And when the 3 to 4 months turned into 5 and 6, I got frustrated and upset and then remembered how I gave it to God…..I didn’t have to worry about it anymore. He was in charge and it would be done when it was done. Gee…guess I learned patience.
And then……I hooked up with a friend on FB who I used to work with more than 10 years ago. She had moved to North Carolina and worked for a women’s ministry called “Proverbs 31”. Her name is Holly Good and she is the executive assistant to Lysa Terkeurst. I signed up for info. Heard about Made to Crave, bought the book, didn’t get too far, said oh well. Then I heard about the Confident Heart study and decided to do that and was put in an online FB group. It wasn’t a good fit and I ended up with hurt feelings and quit. Christi Wilson saw a post I made and asked me if I would like to join another group. I was afraid I was too far behind but the women in the group I was added to welcomed me with open arms and within the first few days I felt like I found my home. The study changed my life as did getting to know each one of the ladies in my group.
We are now coming to the end of another year and God is continuing to TRANSFORM me into the daughter I was destined to be. I feel Him close to me every day and my attitude has changed. I am praying more and talking to people about my journey and I’m excited about life. I have learned to “step out of the boat” as they say and trust that God is in control. I know He has a plan and a purpose for everything. And I am working on being bolder for Christ in my every day walk.
I know as we all continue to delve into His word, we will ALL be TRANSFORMED. And I’m just praising God for all he has done in my life and continues to do.